I think staying positive about this whole experience is really, really important.
“Don’t wait for a light to appear at
the end of the tunnel, stride down there.. and bloody light it yourself. ”
–Sara Henderson
Easier said than done of course, but it’s all too easy to get caught up in our ‘self-chatter‘ , whether it be ‘fat talk’ or ED just bothering the hell out of us, that we forget to notice the smaller, more intricate pleasures that are surrounding us right now..
.. You know how it’s so hard … hard to see these things because all our energy is focused on this one factor; this one element that has become our life. Losing weight, eating less, moving more. I woke up this morning with that all too familiar chatter. But once I noticed this chatter was absolutely not mine, I took a step back, acknowledged it were there, and laid in bed until last nights stupor finally weared off.
What I loved about this is that, originally, I would have a dire need to get up and do something. Anything that would mean I was being ‘active’ and burning calories. Again, these were not my urges. I wanted to simply relax in the pillows until I felt I could get up and presume daily activities.. and so I did.
I attempted 30 minutes on the stationary bike but just didn’t have the motivation nor the energy, so I opted for some cleaning instead. We are not expected to be moving 24/7, 7 days a week, every single second. This I have to keep reminding myself. We deserve time to recuperate. Today will just have to be a rest day..and we all need rest, right?
The guilt I receive after eating any meal still lingers and this makes it tough to really stay focused on my goal; to be healthy and allow myself an assortment of food on a daily basis, and not have to ‘compensate’ for eating what I’m supposed to. I am continuing to make progress though, and allowing myself to eat when my body wants to eat is just another stepping stone..
Inspired by the glorious Tat. Such a yummy combination!
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