Ugh.
Yes I have entered it. The binge/purge/restrict cycle and it’s so fucking hard to stop.
For a few weeks now I’ve found it very difficult to stop bingeing. I’m at a healthy weight, and have been now for several months, so I know it can’t be physical. It’s psychological crap.. I feel so out of control and disgusting and ashamed and loathsome and repulsive and vile and like I want to hide myself away. I hate my body. Or I hate what my eyes are showing me in reflection of my current mindset. I absolutely despise my appearance. I want to disappear.
I want to be at peace.
